Thursday, March 22, 1990
2:30 PM. In half an hour, I’ll be heading for Southwood Junior High. Next Thursday is the last class there, and then I’ll have all of Thursday off as well as all of Tuesday.
I got the TEC request for Sunset High School, where I start next Friday. Because of the spring break, my final three classes there will be on April 20 and 27 and May 4.
Sunset High School is only a bit closer than Southwood, but the neighborhood is 
Before I went to sleep last night, I heard on the 10 PM news that the Tokyo market had plunged nearly 10%; it made up about half that loss by the morning (here), and the U.S. markets haven’t been affected, but I wonder how the combination of a weak yen and higher interest rates will play out.
The Wall Street Journal’s lead story today was on banks cutting down on credit to businesses because they’re under more severe security by regulators due to earlier 
I’m barely managing to get by on my credit chassis, and now I expect I’ll have to return to Florida in early fall to face bankruptcy. Once I start missing payments, I can’t let my parents deal with the phone calls from creditors.
It’s not going to be pleasant, but I went into this with my eyes open, and I got six or seven great years out of the system.
Still, I’ve got to think about my future, and I’m going to have to make some big 
I love teaching, but computer education has limited possibilities, and I’m tired of English.
If I get my degree in another field, like art or geography or history, I can teach on the college level. To be a community college teacher in Florida, all I need is 18 graduate credits in the subject area.
Oh well, I keep thinking ahead.
I didn’t sleep well, so I stayed in bed past 8 AM. After breakfast, I watched the Video Professor’s introductory tape on Aldus PageMaker for the Mac.
I’ve already seen most of the tapes on Appleworks and the introductory ones on dBase III+, Microsoft Word and DOS.
I returned two tapes to the library and picked up another two, the second levels of 
This is an excellent way for me to learn new programs without having to spend money or time on more classes.
Once I’ve gone through all the Video Professor tapes in the West Regional Library, I’ll see if the Main Library has others.
Oops, lost track of the time, gotta go.
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About half the teachers quickly catch on, but there are always some that aren’t too swift.
In a way, it’s a shame that more top-quality, really bright people don’t go into teaching – but with the system the way it is, who can blame them?
Today I didn’t even need to snack till I came home and had dinner.
I was supposed to call Tony and Adrienne tonight to make arrangements for tomorrow night, but they’re not at home.
Saturday, March 24, 1990
Although I took out $800 in cash advances this morning, I’ve been paying such big sums on my credit cards, I’ll need to wait till the end of this coming week to get enough cash to cover the AmEx payment.
I should be able to do it by April 1 – but of course, I get nervous when I see “payment due upon receipt.”
Up early, I did my usual morning thing. The Nautilus gym at BCC-South was closed, and I’m not going to try it again on Saturdays.
At noon, bringing my Walkman and the tape Crad sent, I got in the car to drive up to Delray Beach.
On the Street with Crad Kilodney is fairly pointless, at least to my ears. At some
The Torontonian drunks and screamers on the tape are boring – I’ve heard it all before on the streets of Manhattan – and while there are a few chuckles, Crad doesn’t come off any better than he did in Excrement. In a lot of ways, he’s not a nice person.
But I’ll keep my criticism to myself and not comment on the tape except to say thanks for sending. Crad acknowledged getting my book but said he’s been too b
He sent the article on his Irving Layton manuscript hoax that went out over the wire services. So he managed to do it. I think it’s a waste of his time – as is the tape.
Bert and Alice are staying at Alice’s mother’s place in Gleneagles, one of the nicer Delray complexes. The family’s all 
Because Alice had to stay with the three kids, Bert and I went out by ourselves to a deli on Atlantic Avenue.
Alice’s father and sister both died in the past few months, and her mother, 80, isn’t doing well.
Bert told me he and Alice are disagreeing over her insistence that their son, who’s 
She thinks Teddy is seriously disturbed, but he sounds like a fairly normal shy bookworm to me.
“He doesn’t like sports,” Bert said, and I said, “So?” Apparently not liking sports is a big deal to Alice.
Bert finally threw out all but a handful of copies of Gigging; he gets much more gratification from his klezmer band than he ever did from writing, and he practices 
Of course, he noticed my weight loss. (I made do in the deli with a can of tuna on a bed of lettuce, onions and tomatoes and a can of Dr. Brown’s Diet Cel-Ray.)
Bert and I talked about books and writing and real estate, and I left Delray at 2:30 PM after a pleasant couple of hours. It was nice to see Bert again.
Monday, March 26, 1990
8 PM. No, I didn’t get around to marking the English 101 papers today. I thought maybe I could do them tonight while watching the Oscars, but now I’m too tired and headachy.
The reason I had no free time today was a call I got from ABC-TV. Julie Young, who works for Vin Di Bona Productions there, saw the Committee for Immediate Nuclear War listing in the Encyclopedia of Associations and left her number with Mom.
When I came home at 2 PM and heard Mom’s message, I already felt pretty certain t
Anyway, Julie is working on a pilot for America’s Funniest People, which sounds like a ripoff of ABC’s surprise #1 hit, America’s Funniest Home Videos.
She asked to see a demo tape, which she said didn’t have to look great. So I figured what the heck and rented a camcorder at a video store way out west on State Road 84.
After Marc helped me set it up, I taped myself doing a monologue, completely unprepared and unrehearsed, sitting in the chair in Dad’s study.
When I played it for Mom (and Dad, who came home from work in the middle of 
But I suspect my style isn’t sound-bite-quick enough for a mainstream network show; I sound too much like a monologist in the Spalding Gray mode.
Still, as inept as the tape was, production-wise, I can see that I’m at home in front of a camera, and it was a good learning experience, like everything else I’ve done on video: Barbara’s show on cable, Jean Trebbi’s Library Edition, the interview with Joyce Horman that Josh directed, the CBS Evening News and other TV news segments, 
A little while ago I dropped off the demo tape, along with some clips, as Priority Mail at the post office.
Tomorrow I’ll return the camcorder, perhaps after Marc and I fool around with it a little.
This morning I was able to send out the $1750 check to American Express Gold Card by using all my available credit to make every little cash advance I could.
But I’ve got $1000 in credit card bills that have to wait until I can cover them with fresh cash advances.
What a drag this whole thing is becoming. There’s no way I can avoid bankruptcy 
Eighty-seven people were killed in a Bronx social club in a fire started by a Mariel refugee.
The tragedy has once again thrown the spotlight on New York City’s poverty; these people, mostly Dominicans and Hondurans, have nowhere else to go but these illegal social clubs.
Teresa phoned tonight, mostly with real estate news.
She found a woman who wants the West 85th Street apartment in September, and her new Japanese businessman tenant is ensconced on East 87th Street.
It’s hard to believe I’ll be back in New York in less than six weeks. What I’ve still got to do here seems endless.
Tonight’s Oscar night, and I feel a patriotic duty to watch it and be bored.
Friday, March 30, 1990
9 PM. This evening I opened what I assumed was a standard rejection of “In the Sixties” by Mississippi Review only to discover they’d typeset the first paragraph for 
Well, I’m happy to get into the magazine, so I’m sending back the page proofs and my contributor’s note, but actually the writing seemed much weaker with all the sentences in isolation.
Last night I slept soundly but only from 11:30 PM to 5:30 AM, when I couldn’t get back to sleep. So I took advantage of the extra time by making ATM cash advances, reading the newspapers, and exercising.
After depositing some money in the bank, I arrived at BCC just a bit before 11 AM.
Betty had Judy Cofer ready for her 11 AM reading, but they changed the venue 
Betty asked me to introduce Judy, so I quickly grabbed a copy of one of her novels and made notes from the jacket flap.
I also talked to Judy, who told me about her forthcoming book of essays and poems about growing up Puerto Rican.
I began my introduction with a personal reminiscence of the first time I met Judy, at a 1981 reading at the Sunrise Jewish Community Center and how I could tell right away that she would be going places as a poet.
Then I listed her fellowships and awards and publications. (I forgot to mention her 
Judy read two short passages from The Line of the Sun and some poems, enough to confirm that she’s obviously a very fine writer. I know my creative writing students appreciated her, for they asked intelligent questions afterwards.
I was touched when Judy said her first national recognition came in an article I wrote for Coda in 1982.
Actually, I don’t know Judy all that well, of course.
I’ve heard stories that she’s pushy and political, but that’s always what envious people say about women writers who become successful; I don’t believe those kind 
Besides, Judith Ortiz Cofer is a writer who does a writer’s job. Unlike like a lot of people I could name, there’s nothing phony about her.
Judy is not teaching now that she and her husband have moved to a farm outside Athens, Georgia, while their daughter attends the University there.
I couldn’t stay because I had to rush to my English 101 class, so I bought a copy of her novel and left it with Peter to get autographed.
Later, knowing that I had to drive down to Sunset High School, I ate lunch in the workroom and at Wendy’s (where I had the salad bar) rather than go to the local 
Judy has been doing lots of readings, so she was used to the five she did at BCC, starting with Adrienne’s Wednesday night class, where she was so good that my former student Lois came back today to hear her again; it was nice to see Lois again.
When Peter introduced Judy at 9 AM, he apparently said that he “envied” Judy’s success. It’s a measure of the long road that I’ve traveled that I honestly don’t.
Where I do feel a kinship with her is that she can’t be pigeonholed, either. Critics don’t know what to do with Judy because she doesn’t fit into preconceived categories: she’s not a Nuyorican poet, and she writes in English, not Spanish.
Hastily driving down to Kendall, I arrived at Miami Sunset Senior High before 3 PM.
The teachers in my workshop are nice, but they’re all at different levels of computer knowledge and experience.
Unfortunately, there are only a few AppleWorks program tutorial disks, and some 
I did the best I could, running from person to person and group to group, and while I got help from the experienced AppleWorks users, it’s always hard when the teacher individualizes instruction.
(By the way, I did the same thing in English 101 today, having conferences with students as I went over their papers.)
Our next workshop meeting is in three weeks, and I now know what to expect and how to prepare. But with a total of only ten hours in this component, we can only s
Driving home during rush hour on the Turnpike was fairly painless, mostly because I was going north rather than south.
At Mom’s, I collected my mail, and once at home, I paid my bills, watched the news, read USA Today and had a Healthy Choice dinner.
Now I feel the anticipation of a whole weekend before me.
Saturday, March 31, 1990
It’s 10 PM, but I’ve already set the clocks ahead for daylight savings, so the clock radio, VCR, microwave and answering machine all say 11 PM.
Up at 7 AM today, I did the usual morning stuff.
When I do aerobics now, it’s harder for me to work up a sweat because I’m so much thinner. I guess I need to work out harder or longer.
Most of the day I stayed inside, catching up on my reading. Despite myself, I listened to that hateful Mike Thompson on radio because he was discussing the “outrageous obscenity funded by the NEA.”
God, I wish all this right-wing 1980s shit was over already.
When I called Grandma, she said she was still having liquid diarrhea, causing herself to soil her clothes and bed. On Wednesday, Marty is taking her to a specialist for tests; it sounds like she’s getting a lower GI series.
Adrienne said that having Judy Cofer in her class was a terrific experience for her and her students.
I lay in bed reading much of the afternoon as heavy rains fell, but at 4 PM, I drove downtown to the Main Library, where I read recent issues of American Banker.
Back in Davie, I found myself driving behind Marc and China in the van as they pulled into Mom and Dad’s driveway.
Marc said the flea market sales are down 15% from the first quarter of 1989, and Dad expects a bad menswear show in Miami tomorrow; some salesmen aren’t even bothering to go. Dad says we’re in a recession.
This stirs mixed feelings because I’ve already started spending too much time imagining what I’ll say and what “construct” the newspaper article will make of “Richard Grayson.”
In recent years, I haven’t appeared in the papers much, but then again there are fewer newspapers than back in ’82 or ’83, when I seemed to be in print every week. (The Hollywood Sun is cutting back to a three-day-a-week schedule, a sign of its impending doom.)
While I like Chauncey, I know his taste in literature is very different from mine, and I 
Oh well, I’ll just call him on Monday and hope we can get the whole thing over quickly so I don’t spend hours musing about it.
Remember, Grayson: You’re not as smart as you think you are.